Tomorrow is the day....

Tomorrow is our first Beta HCG test. Given Monday was a holiday this was a short week but it has felt like the LONGEST week ever. The wait was not this intense feeling the first time around. There is truly nothing left to do but wait.

There are just so many emotions I never expected to feel when starting out on this journey. Yes, I am a super compassionate person so I have lots of feelings....but man this has truly been a roller coaster of highs and lows.

And today feels hard........

Tomorrow morning I will go to work and go about my normal routine. I will run down to the lab to get my blood drawn quick and then wait ALL day for THE call that will tell us if we are pregnant or not.

Even just typing those words brings me to tears. I want to believe with all of my heart this time the outcome will be different. I am putting all of the faith I can muster up into God and trusting His plan, hoping it aligns with mine. While also trying to prepare myself for the possibility of another "no". And the thought of that is gut wrenching.

My Intended Momma has been in touch a lot this week which has been nice, her kind words and reassurance is humbling. All of the emotions I think I am feeling can not even begin to compare to what she is going through yet she remains steadfast. The support from my loved ones and friends has been so meaningful during this time as well. It truly takes a village sometimes, and although mine is small, it is oh so powerful. As I try to keep it together today with moments scattered of falling apart I am just still so thankful for such an incredible opportunity to not only change someone else's life, but to change mine as well!

Until tomorrow......